Friday, November 12, 2010

A new way of looking at things

So that was about a week and a half ago, and despite what others might say, I have chosen to look on the bright side (and I am NOT just living in denial), realizing that THEY REALLY DON'T KNOW. That was worse case scenario and statistics for a really broad category of the unknown. Most of the babies in that category (if not all of them) probably have completely different problems and so it's still not a very accurate way to say exactly what will happen with Cadence. And... all of the genetics tests keep coming back normal. The doctors here are really good, they are the top of the line, and they really know they're stuff. But the brain is something that NOBODY really knows much about and ultimately God has the biggest say in things, not the doctors. That cute little baby has more prayers and fasting for her than I ever thought possible (thanks to everybody!) and, whether it's just me or whether it's the spirit, I really feel like things are going to turn out okay. I also know that my biggest calling in life is to be a good wife and a good mother (with multiple CHILDREN) so whether we have more of  (hopefully) our own children, or whether we end up adopting more, I guess things will end up okay...some day.

7 comments:

  1. Sarah, I just want you to know that when I read this last post, I got chills and felt a strange happiness/teary eyed. There is a strong spirit taking care of your little family, we all can feel it wrapped around you. I know I can. I love you all.

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  2. Sarah, i have been thinking about you all day. YOu have to be one of the strongest women i know. Your daughter is so lucky to have you. She is beautiful she looks just like you. You are a wonderful mother i always knew you would be you learned from the best.

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  3. Hey this is quite the blog!! Good job:) I just want you to know that You and Logan are already proving yourselves to be phenomenal parents and Cadence, while choosing some of her trials, also chose the two of you because she knew that you guys would be the VERY BEST at loving her through them!!! I love the 3 of you very much and please know that I am here for you!!!

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  4. Oh Sarah. I'm so sorry that you are having hard times and that your very first baby had to have so many problems. I want you to know that you light up my life and that little girl laying in that hospital bed couldn't have a father that loves her more than I do. You are the most excellent mother ever! I know that you feel sometimes that you haven't had the chance to be a mother, but believe me...you are proving yourself right now. You are awesome and I know that I am the luckiest guy in the world. I know that every husband says that, but I mean it from the very depths of my heart and soul. This is why I want you forever. I'm just glad that we know that no matter what happens here as long as were faithful we can be with Cadence (and whoever else her future may entail) for all of eternity. We will be happy and just remember that this sucks now...but we will be so ridiculously happy with our family for all of forever. I love you. Thank you for doing this blog. You are the best.

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  5. I am so sorry for all you guys are going through. I can't even imagine watching your child be life flighted feeling hepless. We will pray for your strenght and your sweet Cadence. I'm sure you have other family up here between the 2 of you, but please know that you are always welcome to stay with us in West Jordan if you EVER need a place to stay. THanks for the blog to keep us posted on what has been happening.
    -Melinda Gardner

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  6. I am proud of you both! You are doing what you can and I know Cadence can feel that you love her and all you can do right now is give her that love!

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  7. I know I could never fully understand what you are going through but I have lived through NICU twice with one of my best friends. And it takes an extreamly stong person and an amazing mother to sit beside her child an wait for doctors to figure things out. It is a long hard road but they always seem to work out as they should. I hope things continue to get better for you. Good luck with everything.

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